Sant's gift for year 2010

X'mas this time is fun, good and most importantly (for me) communicative. I have my Bro-in-law and family this time to end my current year and to begin my next year with loads of fun and love and may be, most importantly to think about something nice and positive(surrounded with negative vibes all the time was blocking my capacity to think and feel good) .I feel happy and relaxed and enjoying myself. Last time (3months ago) when they left they gave me a whole lot of  merry moments as some vitamin tablets for my survival .And i am over and above joyful and thankful to GOD for sending them back for my benefit and happiness. I really don't have anything more to ask. As i am realizing very often that even in my toughest times and especially when i am completely about to loose my hope, i am gifted and surrounded with some of the best things that would just vanish my pain and leave me with happiness to hold back. Thank u god...thank u so so much for loving me and still holding me . This the bestest gift Santa gave me....and i now know for sure that i can happily say good-bye to year 2010...without any regrets....

Merry X'mas and Happy New year......:)

Thoughts

Nice thoughts, silly thoughts, funny thoughts, magical thoughts, cute thoughts, fearful thoughts, confused thoughts, sad thoughts, painful thoughts, blank thoughts, annoying thoughts, helpful thoughts, general thoughts, revengeful thoughts, venomous thoughts, tearful thoughts, romantic thoughts, friendly thoughts, nostalgic thoughts, daring thoughts, happy thoughts, joyful thoughts, blissful thoughts, sanctimonious thoughts, ...................all this and more in SILENCE........................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just another day...

Let me not think about planning out something.I have done that enough and seen myself end up in not being able to do it.Well...to clarify its not as in i cannot...its just that feel helpless. So i decided to prepare myself for certain things which again is a part of my planning. Isn't it complicated??? I mean i am here trying not to plan anything and ends up doing the same..!Duh...

Apparently keeping my self  glued to books and books and movies.....