Musical isolation!

Spending a delightful weekend is indeed a surprise. Its been quite long that i had experienced it. Busy life has taken its toll. And i must mention that i do sincerely make an effort to make the weekend look beautiful. Its not like i have a magic wand and i just need to twirl it to make things happen. But i wish. Anyways, so it was delightful because my life was happy and enjoying her existence.Oh ,by the way, my life here refers to my daughter Esha..... Staying in an isolated surrounding, where thoughts do not match with ours , comes the need of survival i.e. to make the extra zillion effort to hold on to your sanity, which otherwise is a daily occupation and does not require much effort. So a weekend stay from this isolation @ savitha chechi's(sister) place was like a therapy and in addition to it ,some old melodies sung live by Mr Bhanu  @ their beautiful club house was just divine. A vocalist and a pianist by profession, his vocal is his greatest gift and believe me when i say ,it was pleasure to have a musical weekend. His effortless way of singing did make me jealous, not because i cant sing, but his ability to indulge in those keys and to be able to vanish in his own melodious world without getting distracted by the surroundings. Aaaaah, what more could one ask for. Nothings could distract him and nothing could stop him. He was all alone ,but  his supreme gift. Oh ,he too was isolated, but his was by choice and am sure unlike me he ain't regretting it. His being a musical isolation.

Sant's gift for year 2010

X'mas this time is fun, good and most importantly (for me) communicative. I have my Bro-in-law and family this time to end my current year and to begin my next year with loads of fun and love and may be, most importantly to think about something nice and positive(surrounded with negative vibes all the time was blocking my capacity to think and feel good) .I feel happy and relaxed and enjoying myself. Last time (3months ago) when they left they gave me a whole lot of  merry moments as some vitamin tablets for my survival .And i am over and above joyful and thankful to GOD for sending them back for my benefit and happiness. I really don't have anything more to ask. As i am realizing very often that even in my toughest times and especially when i am completely about to loose my hope, i am gifted and surrounded with some of the best things that would just vanish my pain and leave me with happiness to hold back. Thank u god...thank u so so much for loving me and still holding me . This the bestest gift Santa gave me....and i now know for sure that i can happily say good-bye to year 2010...without any regrets....

Merry X'mas and Happy New year......:)

a mail

E-mails and other blogs and communication sites are logged into almost daily. Most of the e-mails would be forwards from friends and others spams.I like to keep my accounts a bit organised for my understanding...so i do delete the less important mails and keep  my inbox short and arranged.People have become so busy in their lives that to just be in touch they send fwds and yes occasional updates. SO checking mails has and is never interesting for me anymore..i just read the headlines and decide to weather go further or click delete.But there are also personal mails send and for me those mails means more and brings a smile on my face.One such mail was from my co-sister. Well she is more of a friend and a sister to me. Time spent with her is although for few months, but am sure it has lasted for a lifetime.A nicer person i have ever met. Whenever i think of her i just miss her and wish she was still next to me .A person with patience so high, that i just feel like borrowing some form her( for which i have nil). A learning experience and i know i would have known more if i spent more time with her. A mail from her is just a perfect thing i was looking for. And to know that i was able to satisfy her buy gifting her things that she desired for. Hope i get to be near to her soon..:)
love you chechi:)