Me and 'no time'

I have been struggling and trying hard in finding some extra time to write down my thoughts...but some how i find none.:(.
Don't want to blame any as don't know whom to blame...!!
There is so many celebrations , occasions in my life happening around that i just feel like saving it somewhere...but some how i find no time...how is it possible...???
I read about ppl managing so much of social activities along with their personal life...and still find lots of time to go about doing other commitments...and here i am ...not finding 'the time'...:(
Gosh....i do think if its my time management that has to be re-arranged...??
Well what ever it is i need to hurry up as the lost time cannot be received...
so promising my self to come back soon and write ...i close for the today while justifying my act of satisfaction..heheh..!!

Patient is the word!!!

hmmm....i know i know....the word "patient" is not connected to me....but then off late i realised that i had to imbibe it to my daily life. Sounds funny...hmm..but its not.
I wanted to save this word in my life as i knew ; without this i may loose my loved once for ever. I knew that i am short tempered and lack patience..but i guess i took that for granted and thought things would fall into its own places when, if ever, things go wrong. But no i was absolutely wrong; infact things started falling off and i was going mad; not able to think good and fearing that i might do or say something , only to see that my ppl are hurt.
I wanted to speak and spill out things that was running in my mind , that i knew was stronger and akin to a fatal poison. I knew it back in my mind that my short temperament was poisoning my thoughts..i was loosing control over it.. :(
May be it got aggravated due to my hormonal changes that i am undergoing now(going to b a mom :-I)..but i knew even this is lame excuse.

As usual i had the man in my life who is the translator of my thoughts and shows me a path to a happy side of life. Speaking to raj was even fearful..i had to explain him things that i dint mean but is happening to me..i wanted to burst and cry loud to tell him that i am going crazy, i need help and that i had tried to come out of it...
Knowing that the situation is the most delicate one..and knowing that he might have to face it one day...raj was prepared and had a solution to it....he did pull me out of the tangled web easily.

His words , his explanation and yes of course his patient manner of handling things..did push me to think and work for changing myself..and being patient to this world!!!
I have decided to do so ... i do not want to loose the people whom i love the most..they are my only real treasure....i have...

love u muttu.........and thanks for being there .....all the time....:)

after a while....

"Lost" is the word that describes me best at this moment.

Responsibilities mounting daily, busy life not less than a machine..where is the time left for me to even breath leave alone to have a glimpse of my inner self. My desires, my dreams, my interests.....all are at hold; If you ask me why..i have no answer to it....My be the world is moving fast and preparing for its Armageddon....

Not that i am not enjoying this cluster of events in my life...i am the happiest ever and ever...but ached that for once.... if the world could come to a stand still and i could cherish those few moments.....of me....with me..... and with my loved ones....!!!!!!!!

Without any understanding of my next station...i am on track though but may be without brakes :)

I am lost....yet life moves on..!!